My thoughts for today

At first when I created this blog-I had no idea of what that meant(had to rely on my instincts and learn over time), also what it is. now after losing my job 2 1/2 months ago and still facing unemployment, and prospects of any job is at present-bleak. Depression, anxiety, stress and pressure of unemployment, and losing site of all that I'd like to accomplish,(this blog),as well as what to write, suddenly becoming aware of what I told my brother: using my time constructively,write things and maybe stories-I said maybe stories. Am I a storyteller? NOT by a long shot. So what got me here after a long spell-someone sent me an email,a rather complimentary email-somewhat got my interest back-surface interest for now-I wouldn't know how to start a book,I'm not an author; otherwise I would have done that since high school,never mind the fact that I failed english grammer in elementary, one of my weakest link in life. the other is math, my worst headache. have to start somewhere somehow. playing EQ2 can help, yes it's very entertainning, but also still need to find work-everyone has an opinion about how and where to find work, but it finally draws down to ability, and also at the right place and right time. and finally IF there's an openning. A lot of people are unemployed nowadays for a variaty of reasons,any country any place. A lot of people who have blogs do so for a number of reasons, and some got luckier still on how to make money doing blogs. Mine is still a work in progress. There are some companies out there that rely strictly on word of mouth when it comes to consumer purchases, such as retail-rather than advertise on cable(TV), they do word of mouth ONLY, some succeed, while at the same time others fail. For now this blog is one such item that will rely strictly on word of mouth. Newspaper companies have authors who write commentaries, those people know how to write essays and columns, I'm not one of them. Perhaps one day a newspaper company might get wind of this and ask me if I care to join, that will depend on a lot of factors that might inhibite that chance. I don't operate on a time line or deadline, only if I go for long walks and think up stuff that would suddenly come to me as a bright light and be really appealing. anyrate, I don't get to travel much, due to lack of adequate transportation, I have to walk no matter where I would want to go. So you ask yourself what's the point? Having a great idea and story in which to put here for your interest! I'm not for the short end of the stick on thought expressions here, if your interested in for some reading however your curiousity goes,then I've succeeded in that area. Acadiemia (?) is not going to be listed here, I'm no Einstein, just textually expressing my opinion and thought. Even the word order may be scattered, and thought trail may be bumpy, but that's life! at least I'm trying. By the way-while one state continues to take their time looking for my high school records, I do plan on attending a nearby college. (still scratching my head on that one).